The Ups and Downs of Me

While everybody was talking about new year's resolution, I was thinking about only one thing. My health and my weight.

What I am talking about is, my health and lifestyle. I am always plump as long as I can remember. Being in this shape always makes me low in self-esteem, when it comes to clothes and appearance. But what I remember most, I started to gain more weight when I was in the boarding school. Besides debates, I always passionate about sports and all others extreme and fitness activities. I was 16 when I stopped all this activities. It was then I started to gain more weight. It makes it more obvious when I am 'blessed' with my late grandmothers large hips and bumps. It kind of runs in the family. The funny thing is, whenever I went to shop for jeans, it always stuck at my hips but loose on my waist. Yes, I have a tiny waist.

Enough about that.

Moving to Dubai gave me a great impact when I gain more. I gain almost 30lbs in almost a year since we moved here. My only time that I lose weight was when I am 19 and gain back after I got married. I was in such horror that I am now really, really heavy!! It's like a wake up call for me. My husband is very skinny, but me? I look like extra LARGE pear with two feet. But the best thing was, I may be fat, but I have more stamina and fitter than my dear husband.

With a new resolution (not even a new year), I start searching online about health and lifestyle. YES I want to improve my health and lifestyle first, slimming, second. I changed my eating habits, I even start doing exercise and aerobics at home by myself (as there were no gym available at the apartment I stayed at that time), I started swimming and walking.

The results by the end of one month, I lose 1/2lbs. Not much, but I feel good and more fired up to continue it. And when we moved to this new place, they got a gym. I went to the gym instead. And I continue to lose weight and getting fit. One thing that bothers me was, I didn't lose much but my waistline improves a lot. I went to see a doctor and he said, there's nothing wrong with me. I am healthy and fit, but, my heavy weight is not because of the 'fat'. But, the muscle I had since I was young, from all the heavy activities I was into before. I am used to a lot of calories BUT, with a lot of calorie burning activities. Since I stopped they were stored into FAT.

Anyway,

My other problem is, every time I get depressed, I started to crave. When I started to crave, I eat. A LOT!. Then I started to gain weight again. That what happened to me, after all those hard work. So last year, after I gave birth, I started my mission again. To be as healthy as possible and to lose more weight.

While I was pregnant, I went online and search for any health products and of course my jamu for the confinement. I found them, and I am grateful for the healthy supplement can be mailed to me every month, until now to maintain my health in every way. I never bother about supplement before. But now I do.

Last year, after the birth of Falisha, I make sure I follow all the strict confinement rules and manage to lose 20lbs after 40 days. But still I want to feel better and look better. As soon as Falisha started solid food, at 6 months, I started my diets.

I read about healthy way of weight loss, other stuff that led to healthy lifestyle and eating habits. I started to follow the 1200 calories per day. Using the Calorie Count to measure the food. But I took 1500 calories instead as I am still breastfeeding Falisha. So after 6 months I manage to lose almost 8 lbs. The best thing was, during the Raya Haji, some of my friends that saw our new family pictures said I look slimmer and good! They want to know how I did it. Alhamdulillah, mean it works! It's not just the food intake, it is also exercise, exercise, exercise!

So now, feeling healthier and fitter, I will continue my healthy habits and lifestyle. It's not just about my weight, but the most important is to be healthy and feels good!